Deep Communing in Times of Hurt
recently, i had the experience of waking up with complete and total stiffness and pain going from the top of my neck down to my mid-back, making it challenging to turn over in bed or lift my arms above my head.
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i have outstanding twice weekly appointments with my own chiropractor. on a thursday of total stuckness both in the physical form and the emotional one, i laid down on his table knowing damn well that he was not there to “fix” me, but to give my body the support that i could not quite muster up solo, allowing for this stuckness to transform into something productive and lesson-worthy.
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we’ve all been there. we all want that pain, that ick, that thing that’s slowing us down and inhibiting us from maintaining our speed of life to magically dissipate and disappear, never to be seen or felt again.
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but that just isn’t how it works.
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this thing that crept into my system, truthfully, had been building during the entirety of the month of august—with unforeseen moves, questions in self-trust, and large energetic shifts, my heart, soul, spirit, and physical body had been through a lot.
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and i had held it together pretty well, for the most part.
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and then i stepped into the softening once the crisis had ended.
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and that is when this thing took over my upper body.
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so what did my chiropractor say to me?
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it is about time it is all felt.
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and he is right.
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so instead of numbing the pain, instead of running from it, distracting myself, i am doing my damndest do allow it to be what it is. to honor its message, to honor the transition, to honor the learning that comes with feeling so damn stuck.
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and i keep on living.
i keep on thanking my body for caring for me, for slowing me down.
i keep on…going.
so thanks for going with me.
with all the love in my hands and heart,
gab
